7 more days of liveing.
a forever of death.
why would you leave me?
you never believed me.
this is your faught brad.
no warning's no sign.
no forgiveing no life.
i'm going to watch the blood,
as it roll's down my arm.
i really hope your happy brother.
because of you i'm dead,
and standing on dark for the ones that we shelter, will always be ready cause ive always been dead.

theres something that i can't quiet explain, i'm so inlove with you youll never take that away, and if i said 100 times befor, expect 1000 more. youll never take that away.

i really can't sing any more of that for you rhea, because after the 17th i would be lieing more than i am now if i continued. i really hope you and dustin live happy togeather. you took away the old and showed me the new i felt like i could fly when i stood next to you. i tryed to hard to make you smile... to make us smile.

In the brightest hour
Of my darkest day
I realized
What is wrong with me
Can't get over you
Can't get through to you
It's been a helter-skelter, romance from the start
Take these memories
That are haunting me
Of a paper man cut into shreds
By his own pair of scissors
He'll never forgive her...
He'll never forgive her...
[CHORUS]
Because days! Come and go!
But my feelings for you are forever
Because days come and go
But my feelings for you are forever
Sitting by a fire
On a lonely night
Hanging over from another good time
With another girl...
Little dirty girl
You should listen to this story of her life
You're my heroine-
In this moment I'm lonely
fullfilling my darkest dreams
All these drugs, all these women
I'm never forgiving...
this broken heart of mine
[CHORUS]
Because days! Come and go!
But my feelings for you are forever
Because days come and go
But my feelings for you are forever
One last kiss...
Before I go...
Dry your tears...
It is time to let you go...
One last kiss(One last kiss)
Before I go(Before I go)
Dry your tears(Dry your tears)
It is time to let you go...
Because days! Come and go!
But my feelings for you are forever
Because days come and go
But my feelings for you are forever
One last kiss(One last kiss)
Before I go(Before I go)
Dry your tears(Dry your tears)
It is time to let you go...
One last Kiss...
Before I go...
Dry your tears...
It is time to let you go...
One Last Kiss.

i really wanna play that song for you befor i leave. cause it meens alot, and its how i feel. so ill post it to you befor i leave on the 17th. i'm so done with this hurt, this pain, i'm so sick of every thing i stood for that i don't stand for now. because we were never ment to be and we will never be because of him, maybe if i would have met that sad little girl things might have been better, but i didn't, and there not. so i guess it is time to let you go, and i won't be there next summer, you have someone already there. i was never enough for you and i never will be. your not the reason i'm doing this, but i want you to know befor i go i loved you so much rhea, all those late nights wernt just for fun, i stayed on cause i loved you, i was even thinking about not going for you but now it way to late, and ive stalled way to long now on seeing my brother once again, sure it will be a long time, forever, but it will be worth it to excape the hell i'm allready in without you, watching someother guy that said he dosn't love you anymore mess with your head and your heart, so enjoy yourself with him, and live happly without me.

you know you dumbass if you wernt dead right now, none of this would be happening, i hope if someone lets you read what i'm typeing now or what i typed befor i go the same night you did, i really hope you feel sorry, and just think asshole its going to be a 5 year reunion. idk why you picked the 17th of all days to die, why you couldn't have waited till after my birthday to die, your just like day was, selfish and greedy, only thinking about whats good for you and not whats good for others, i guess i'm like you too but i would have probley been where i am now even if you were here, cause knowing you, you would have abandond me like now... we had fun sure but what about now what about the hell i'm going through alone cause of you...? ill cya in 7 days brad...

if anything i want this to be rememberd by the people who care, i would love for someone to read this one day. i really do, maybe after i'm gone she might realise what i was, and what i stood for, how much i cared for her, and what she ment to me... because she ment alot, he ment alot too, i don't see how he could have left me like he did, idk why i keep asking myself if i really wanna do this like i'm going to actully be leaving something behind this time. i have nothing left to live for. ill get over it. i just wish i could stick around to see whats inside of her head, cause i know whats going to be inside of his........

poem to my bro.
song.
rhes.
brother.
inside of me...

Hurt, the Last Seven Days. journal by Caleb Harris.
starts well and ends well i guess. while i lay in the cold water and watch the blood spew out of my arms, i wanna remember 2 people that ment alot to me, and i will i hope, and i'll cya... ina nother life.